First 08 Blog

I'm exhausted from work, have had a little to drink at dinner, and am generally in a lower point in my life right now, so this won't be an entry about politics or current affairs.

Right now I'm coasting a little, I don't really have a job, just temping, and not doing anything that I'm at all interested in as a career path, and I'm doing it because I need money. However, I'm not poor and in a city I really want to live in, I'm living at home with my parents, something I'd really rather not be doing, and while I have enough space to myself, it's not 'my' space, and this isn't a city that I feel is 'my' city either.

I don't really know what to do to feel like I have more control over my personhood right now. I don't necessarily think it's because I'm letting other people define me, but maybe I'm letting them define my choices or options. Maybe I need to realize that I'm too crazy to really fit into anyone person's idea of what I should be to be successful. Is there a career field for someone with a wide field of experiences, a good writer and who has ideas? Is there an 'idea guy' job out there where all I have to do is read through materials or hear proposals and then just give feedback or come up with tactics or perspectives that others haven't said before?

If there is, someone email it to me.